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Chapter 112 Being Distracted

“Okay.” Chu Yisen felt miserable to see her disguise.

He said no more because he knew nothing except time could heal her, but what he did not know was that it took her decades to silence her heart and she almost broke down just because of Shangguan Mo's presence.

His mood was ruined but he did not trust her to go home alone. He knew that she had no interest in movies now, but she did not realize that how hard she squeezed his hand and how pale her face was. Chu Yisen just wanted to hug her to his chest and prevent anyone and anything from hurting her.

However, he knew that he could not do that at this time. Otherwise, he would be the kind of person who took any advantage to achieve his goal. So he only wanted to stand behind and protect her and he would sacrifice his life for her as long as she needed.

They entered the cinema in silence and went to buy the tickets, "Xue, which one do you want to watch?"

Murong Xue answered blankly, "Anything is ok."

"Then I get to pick." Chu Yisen chose a comedy, hoping to cheer her up.

"Let's go in there."

"Okay."

Shangguan Mo and Bai Xueli went in later. Shangguan Mo said in a cold voice to the ticket office, "Two tickets, the same movie as theirs." He did not know why he followed them there as he was suffering to see them together, but he knew he wanted to see her.

Bai Xueli had thought that he wanted to watch a movie with her but it turned out that he just wanted to see Murong Xue. She wondered whether he knew about her feelings. Bai Xueli had imagined that he would pay attention to her once Murong Xue was gone, but the situation got worse. He even avoided her and lost control every time he saw Murong Xue. She wanted him to notice her.

Chu Yisen and Murong Xue saw them walk in right after sitting down. Murong Xue's face changed. She calmed down and turned her head to avoid them. She could not believe that Shangguan Mo had time to watch movies with Bai Xueli since she had never gone out with him when they were together. What she only remembered now was their quarrels and the time spent in the villa, and he even did the only gliding with others at that time.

Murong Xue found it amusing that she had time to think about these now as she had decided that they two would lead separate lives.

In a moment, Shangguan Mo sat down next to her, which made Murong Xue stiff. Among so many vacant seats, he chose the one beside her. Moreover, the cinema only had love seats that were large enough for two people.

Shangguan Mo turned his head and fixed his eyes on Murong Xue right after he sat down. He was greedy to get more glimpses of her pretty face. He found she looked fine and her delicate skin remained unchanged as if she had been the same good without him. Sitting next to him, she stared at the screen in front of her silently, refusing to take a look at him.

All of a sudden, he wanted to drag peace out of her. He wanted her to have the same sufferings as his.

Suddenly, Chu Yisen held her arm and waist and exchanged seats with her. "Xue, I prefer to sit at this side. Change seats with me." Chu Yisen got close to Murong Xue and whispered in her ear.

Murong Xue raised a grateful smile. She was almost unable to maintain her peace just now as Shangguan Mo watched her so earnestly that she trembled with terror. Therefore, what Chu Yisen did saved her and she knew she was very susceptible to Shangguan Mo's movements.

Shangguan Mo was furious, "Chu Yisen, what are you doing?"

Chu Yisen retaliated, "What? Do I need your permission to change seats?"

"You..."

"Mo, the movie begins." Bai Xueli pulled him. She was confused that why he could not notice her and why Murong Xue was better than her to him. Seeing Murong Xue with another man not long after their break-up confirmed her belief that Murong Xue did not deserve him.

Shangguan Mo turned to watch the film with a cold face. The comedy won occasional bursts of laughter from the audience except the four, who remained silent and appeared misfit.

None of them knew what the movie was about as they were all minding their own business. They were hurt by the weird relationship and were filled with pain.

When everyone else left, they still stayed put. Finally, Chu Yisen stood up and held out his hand to Murong Xue, "Xue, let's go."

Murong Xue held his hand because she needed strength to support her now, and she answered, "Okay."

When they headed for the exit and walked past Shangguan Mo, Shangguan Mo grabbed her, "Xue."

Murong Xue shivered for a moment, "Please let me go, Mr. Shangguan."

Bai Xueli wanted to separate them immediately but she didn’t dare to do it as she wanted no negative feelings from the man she loved. She could go against anyone, but she wanted Shangguan Mo to like her. Therefore, despite her hatred and sufferings, she could only play pitiful in front of him because she knew by this way she would be his favorite sister even though he did not love her.

"D*mn it. What do you call me?" Shangguan Mo squeezed her harder as if he had wanted to break her arm. He never thought that she would call him Mr. Shangguan, such a cold name. Her cold face was a big strike for him, who had been very depressed these days. Shangguan Mo knew he should leave there at once if he respected himself and he should not care about a woman too much.

Bu this woman changed him so much that he could not recognize himself. He had given his heart to her, and he did not know how to carry on without his heart.

"Mr. Shangguan, what else should I call you? Let me go. You have your responsibility, and I want dignity." A drop of tear ran down from her face at last.

Her tear fell down on his hand and he felt his heart was burnt by it. He did not understand why she could leave him so decisively and how she could let go of him so easily. He wondered whether she had been forced to be with him and so she had never loved him before.

Seeing the marks left by his squeeze from the corner of his eyes, he was frightened and let go of her. "Xue, do you hate me?" Shangguan Mo asked very carefully.

At this moment, Murong Xue was choked with sobs, and nothing in the world was strong enough to defend her in front of him. Instead of hatred, she only had complained about him and was surprised and sorrowful to see his haggard face, so she shook her head. She only blamed herself for fighting against the destined relationship between him and Bai Xueli. She only felt that life was unfair to her.

Shangguan Mo's eyes grew darker when he heard her answer as he thought there would be no hatred without love. In his eyes, if she did not hate him, she must have never loved him.

Chu Yisen could not bear to see this. He had wanted to stay aside and wait for Murong Xue to deal with Shangguan Mo as it was their problem and no one could replace her to do it without worsening her miseries. He wanted to protect her, but he knew it was no good for her, and she would never get rid of it if she did not face it.

"Shangguan Mo, talk to Xue after you have dealt with the woman with you now. Otherwise, who are you to say these?" Murong Xue shed tears like pouring rain and Chu Yisen helped her stand up and walked out.

Seeing her cry like this, Shangguan Mo knew he caused trouble for her again. Now he ruined her peace, but he only felt more miserable as if he had been cut by a dull knife.

"Mo, Xue has found her happiness, so we should bless her… Mo, we'll be happy, too."

Shangguan Mo only found her words confusing as he knew he could not be happy without Murong Xue. Thinking of what Chu Yisen said just now, he turned to look at Bai Xueli who was delicate, tender, and kind. Bai Xueli even had saved him.

But no matter how good she was, Murong Xue was the only one he wanted and loved. He only regarded Bai Xueli as his sister and he never wanted to change their relationship. He knew it was selfish, but he wanted to ask her to leave and he could give her whatever she wanted as compensation. Now he even could not help complaining why she had not refused him that night.

He despised himself for his selfishness and coldness, but he could not afford to lose Murong Xue. He finally opened his mouth and asked in a hoarse voice, "Xueli, I'm sorry."

Bai Xueli understood what he meant at once. Bursting into tears, she ran into his arms and begged, "Mo, why do you say sorry? I don't need that."

Despite her cries, Shangguan Mo did not hug her and he continued his apology, "Xueli, I'm sorry, but I can't lose Xue."

"What about me, Mo? What should I do?"

"I'm sorry."

"No, I don't want your sorry. Mo, I can change for you. I can change myself into the one you like. Mo, please, I can do it. Don't say sorry..."

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