After having dinner with her grandparents, Murong Xue went back to her apartment in a trance.

She thought of what her grandfather had said about going for love bravely. She had done it in her last life, but she met the wrong person. She always hesitated during this life and didn't dare to fall in love, but she was greedy for their love. She was a selfish person...

Did she misunderstand the true meaning of love...?

The weather was good, but she felt blue...

Didn't she know their love? No, she knew...

She knew, but she blocked all the feelings because she was greedy for the love she hadn't got in her last life...

Then everybody she cared about left. Would she end up like her last life at last...?

If she didn't act like that, she wouldn't end up like this. Her cowardice was the reason why she gave up on herself, and she won’t be saved in this way. It had been a long time since she came back to life, and it took her a long time to see it through...

Her selfishness not only slowed her down but also dragged people she cared about, like Chu Yisen and Shangguan Mo...

She thought it was Shangguan Mo's fault so that they had to break up, but in fact, it was all her fault. She was the reason why they had to break up...

She was greedy for Chu Yisen's tenderness because she was hurt. She knew it. She did such a terrible thing. How could she use other people's kindness to heal herself? She did drag people she cared about together to hell.

She didn't face her fear. She was a horrible person and now she could see it...

Murong Xue suddenly realized and rushed out. She drove fast towards Huangfu Yi's base.

Now she knew it and hoped it was not too late...

...

The next day, she was already on the plane to the capital. She looked at the cloud with regret. She knew what her grandfather was talking about, but it was a little bit late...

When she arrived at the base which she had stayed with Huangfu Yi, she saw a pile of rubble that used to be grandiose. She was upset. He cut off all relations with her. He was so prideful and cruel...

Murong Xue stood there for a long time until sunset to darkness...

No matter what happened, she decided to start fresh. She would say goodbye to that coward Murong Xue. She would say goodbye to that mean Murong Xue. She would say goodbye to that Murong Xue who couldn't get rid of her last life...

...

It was a normal cafe with a good atmosphere, soothing music, and lots of beautiful plants. Seats were separated by screens. There weren't lots of people because it was work time. Murong Xue sat next to the window and watched passengers passing by hurriedly, with a smile...

"Sorry, Xue, you've been waiting for a long time?" Chu Yisen went there quickly and breathed with sweat.

Murong Xue held a cup of coffee and said with a smile, "No, I just got here. Have a seat, Yisen. Sorry, I always ask you out like this..."

Chu Yisen pulled the chair and sat down. Murong Xue asked him out. He couldn't be happier. "Xue, how come you come here?" This cafe wasn't far away from his company, and he remembered she didn't come here very often.

"I have something to say to you..." Murong Xue didn't hesitate like she used to be. She said it boldly.

Chu Yisen's smile froze but changed immediately, "No matter what you're about to say, I'll listen carefully."

"Yisen, thank you for listening." Murong Xue said, paused, and then continued, "Yisen, I like someone, and I've decided to go after him for the rest of my life..."

She looked at him and found he looked pale but still maintained a straight sitting position. She realized how she ignored him. She was being selfish. From now on, she wouldn't give him the wrong messages. She made the mistake, and she was the one to end it.

"Sorry, Yisen. I always knew..." Murong Xue looked assertive and decisive with clear eyes. "I know your feelings..."

Chu Yisen listened silently. Murong Xue held the cup tighter. It seemed the heat of the coffee could give her courage "Yisen, you were wrong about me. I'm spoiled and selfish. I'm not that gentle as you see."

"I'm just a selfish person, and now, I won't disturb you... Thanks for your kindness..."

Murong Xue put down the cup and clenched her fist, "I'll chase the man I love and this will never change. I hope you could find your happiness. I will never treat you like what I did before. I'm sorry. It was all my fault. All my selfishness..."

Chu Yisen moved his lips. It was his first time seeing Murong Xue speaking out her opinions like this. She was less shy and gentle and looked more attractive, "Xue, I'm out of hope, right?" She didn't sound gentle and attached and said it clearly. She shut him down already.

Murong Xue glanced at him. She was painful and felt sorry for him, but she was clear in her mind and would never get lost. She would never give him hope because that would hurt him and herself. "Yes. Yisen. I've... I've made up my mind..."

There was silence for a long time. Chu Yisen said gently, "I don't need you to love me, and you don't have to care about me... Just let me be here with you. Is it okay?" The tenderness she used to love was left behind. He knew how much she liked him being gentle around her when she was hurt. He knew she didn't love him. He was okay even if in this situation...

The gentleness without necessarily of being responsible with was like a beautiful jail and Chu Yisen locked himself there. "Yisen, not anymore. Get yourself out of there, okay?" She let go of him and wanted to set him free.

"Okay, I understand." Chu Yisen stood up and walked out of the cafe. It was his first time leaving without saying goodbye. He was worried that he might lose control the next second, which would make Murong Xue feel embarrassed. She grew up and he would trap her. He would do everything to let her get what she wanted, even if he had to abandon his own feelings...

Murong Xue looked at his back and didn't move. She drank her cold coffee and was bitter in her heart.

It had a terrible taste. She put down her cup. From now on, she lost his tenderness but Chu Yisen would be free...

Passengers still passed by, looking happy, angry, or worried, which made her interested. Everyone had their own trouble. How ignorant she was...

She paid the bill and ignored those waiters' appreciative eyes. They could only see her pretty look but didn't know who she really was...

She walked outside the cafe. The sunshine hurt her eyes a little, but she felt warm and comfortable. She took one step out of the castle and didn't have to wait for someone to rescue her. She could do this all alone, couldn’t she?

...

The next day, she put on school uniforms and was ready for school.

Students would still look at her while talking and laughing. Now she thought she was not that great. She just happened to be the topic, which was not something to be proud of. She should be ashamed instead...

She went to the classroom and found everyone was in a circle and there was laughter coming out of it. She found it weird because things like this didn't happen often. She went there with curiosity and heard what they discussed...

"Wow! This is beautiful." A girl shouted.

"This is chia's bracelet from Country C. It's limited." A familiar voice made Murong Xue stop.

"Xiaofei, I didn't know you're so rich, like a princess. I'm so jealous." Another girl said with exaggeration.

"Xiaofei, be my girlfriend. I find out I'm in love with you..." A boy said.

"Go away. You want to be her boyfriend. Get in line..."

"Don't say that. I'm embarrassed..." Huang Xiaofei said she was embarrassed, but she looked proud.

"You're so pretty. There's nothing to be embarrassed about. These guys can't be your boyfriend..."

"..."