You know that empty feeling? When all you feel is total numbness, and it feels like nothing is ever going to be okay?

That is how I feel.

Dirty, used, broken, numb.

They didn't rape me, Antonio said that would come later, I would loll myself before I ever let that man hurt me moreThey beat me until all I felt was the numb sensation of blood falling from every pore.

I was sad, I was scared, but now...

All I am is ...