Jonathan's POV:

"In your dreams Henry.... nah, Jonathan Atkinson, in your dreams! What have you thought of me? A toy that you'll want to satisfy yourself?" I had never seen her so disgusted with anyone, I've never seen her speaking venom with anyone, not even to the ones who've hurt her. Then why me, when all I did was to love her?

"You're not toy for me Helena. I... I love you, why don't you understand me? I want to live with you and...."

"Love? Have you gone insane? Do you even know what love is? Nah, how would you know what love is? Let me tell you then, love is when you want the person to be happy no matter what the condition is, love is not when you want that person at any cost. Love is when you want that person's happiness be it with you or anyone else, like the way Aiden loves me. He never forced me for anything but silently kept on working for my happiness. That's what love is like, do you understand?"

"Enough! Don't you dare to compare me with him. I'm Jonathan Atkinson, and I don't need to be compared with anyone. What did you say? Love is to let the other person be happy? Then what about me? What about my happiness? Life is not the way you explain. You have to snatch everything you want. Be it love, power or money."

I shouted on her at top of my lungs, my past was rotating in front of my eyes when she compared me with him just the way I used to compared all the time. I lost my temper and when I looked in her eyes, all I saw was hatred for myself when all I want to see in her is love for me.

Her hate was making me feel disgusted with myself. Am I that bad? But I'm just doing whatever my life has taught me. No I can't let her hate me, I want her to love me; just the way she loves him.

"Lis.. listen Helena... life is not as easy as you say. And talking about love, that's way too complicated. The definition of love differs between humans. For you, love may be sweet but for me, love is no less than poison." I could feel myself shaking, I was turning weak again. I was opening up about it after whole twenty years, I had never imagined myself speaking up about these things with anyone but right now, all I have is a hope. I just hope she understands me and loves me.

"Who is the first love for a human Helena?" I was looking at my hands which had marks all over them which I had always kept hidden. She didn't answer to me so I turned around to look at her to see if she's even listening to me. She was looking at me suspiciously making me smile; smile at my condition where I couldn't even make her believe upon me when I was actually honestly trying to speak up things.

"Parents. A huamn's first love is his parents. With the time passing by, a child starts understanding the love of his parents towards him and his heart develops love back for them. But what if your parents don't love you back?"

My mind went back to the times when I used to cry for my parents when I started opening up about myself. "I never knew what mother's love is like, cause she was always busy on going out with men she liked while I didn't even even know who was my father until I turned eight. That night my mom brought a man with her who looked similar to me, or should I say the man with whom I looked similar and said he's my father and he's here to take me with him.

I didn't want to leave my mom cause I loved her, she was my mom after all. But she said my dad was missing me and he loves me. I didn't know what to say, all I saw was the man who's supposed to be my father handed over a cash, enough for her to spend her life. I was driven to a huge villa along with hope that I'd be loved by my dad at least.

As soon as I stepped down in the villa, I was welcomed as the most important person which made me feel special. But the very next moment, everyone started talking about Henry Mathew looking at me. I, being an eight year old couldn't get anything, until my so called dad came up to me and called me. "My dear son Henry, come here with me."

Before I could say I was Jonathan, he took me to some people and started introducing me to them as Henry Mathew while I stood confused all the time. As soon as everyone left, a woman walked closer to me with rage. She was the same woman who was with my dad in the portrait in the wall.

"This son of a bitch can never be my Henry." She walked off after slapping me hard while I kept on crying until dad came back after running behind that lady. He convinced me to call myself Henry Mathew cause he said he wanted me to start a new life with new name with him and I being hungry for love, agreed to him without any conditions.

With the time passing by, I learnt that the lady was my dad's wife while I was still confused with my mum and dad not staying with each other. I was being sent to school and was treated royal in front of the world but once I used to step back at home, I'd be treated no less than a servant. My dad's wife would always beat me and I couldn't understand the reason behind her anger cause for me, I was the one who should've been angry with her for coming in between my happy family until one day when I returned back from school.

"Enough David! You brought your illegitimate son in this house, even introduced him as Henry Mathew to the world when that place belongs to my own son, to my Henry. Even though my son Henry died, I tried to stop you from bringing that brat to the house but you, you didn't only bring him here but also gave my dead son's every right along with identity to him. Now you even want to make him the heir? No, that's not going to happen, did you hear me?"

I heard them fighting but those words were still complicated for me to understand until dad spoke his words, making me stunned.

"Yes I'm making him heir, and that's the reason I brought him here, so that I could save my properties from losing it. I need to have a heir to keep my properties with me as per my dad's will and Henry died a year ago. I made an excuse that Henry is in London for a year to see for an option to get out of this trouble and luckily I found her, the mother of my child."

"How could you David? How could you do this? Henry was your own blood, your own son for God's sake."

"Jonathan is my blood as well. And I don't care whoever's blood it is, until and unless I have my properties with me. Do you get that? And keep your mouth shut for your own self, don't force me to take any step Lucy."

I immediately hid myself behind the door when he walked out of the room showing his back to me and my hopes."

When I finished speaking, I turned towards her who was looking at me with unreadable expressions. "Do you know what happened later?" She moved her head from left to right indicating a no.

"My life changed, I killed someone."

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So who do you think did Jonathan kill? Tell me your guesses in the comments❤

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