JONATHAN'S POV:

"Yes, I killed someone. I killed my step mother." This was a secret in my heart and I always felt proud of myself for it but today, I was feeling ashamed for the first time. I moved my eyes away and started explaining things. "That day, I got to know that I was nothing else than a pawn for my own father to get his properties. All my dreams of getting loved shattered and I knew I had no hopes now.

I started spending time alone but every minute in home would be torture. My step mother would always beat me up and her behaviour turned out more uglier and cold with every passing day. My dad met with an accident and lost his life which led me to become the owner of every single properties he owned. This instigated my step mother to act as cruelly as she could.

She was beating me with a whip that night while I was silently bearing her tortures. After staying with her for seven years, I had learnt not to make any sound while crying not to poke her more. But I didn't know she would go further that night, she picked up a gun from her purse and pointed at me.

I was scared, I didn't want to lose my life. I saw a vase on the table next to me. Before she could shoot me, I threw the vase on her head which made her fall on the ground out of imbalance. All my pain had turned into rage, what was my fault? I was born with a fate of being an illegitimate child without my wish, I was raised by my mom without love and my dad came up to me just to fulfil his need. All I wanted was love and look what I got instead? A fear of losing my life.

I tolerated every thing, lost my own identity, tolerated her beatings and inhuman treatments but was I so bad to be killed? No, I wasn't. Not at all. Before she could pick up the gun from floor again, I picked up the vase and hit straight on her head; once, twice, thrice... until and unless she was dead. Once her lifeless body came into my vision, I felt free, free from every tortures and pain.

That night, I felt the power inside me, the same power that I need to use to make people surrender in front of me instead of looking down at me. The fever of getting loved had already disappeared from my heart, all I wanted was power. I threw her from the staircase and every one believed that she lost her life on falling from stairs. I was fifteen then, just fifteen. But money spoke more than my age which was enough to shut the doctor's mouth. I felt the importance of being powerful.

With the time passing by, I started using all the rights of being Henry Mathew along with increasing my grip to more powers. My increasing thirst for powers led me to get linked with underworld. While I was a decent businessman for the world, I was the most feared gangster in underworld. I kept on doing my business in both the worlds with my different identities and I never regretted anything.

Love was nothing more than a sweet poison for me. I would always live my life the way I wanted; powers in my hand and women around me. But then I had to come up because of Georgia Rudolf and then, I saw you..."

As I turned around to look at her, she looked away from me. "I felt myself getting pulled towards you at the very first time I saw you, I tried to pull myself away from you. But every time, you made me fail. Every time you'd stand with and for Aiden, I'd fall even more harder for you. Every time you'd care for him, I'd feel even more greedy. Every time you'd laugh with him, I'd feel even more burning. Every time you'd blush on his words, I'd feel like killing him.

I had already forgotten expecting love but I couldn't resist you. You pulled out the hidden wish in my heart again. I didn't want to force you, I wanted you to love me with your will. But he'd always come in between. That is why I've brought you here, we'll be only with each other now. I felt I could get that love I wanted and I know you'll love me back. If not right now, maybe at someday. I know you will, for sure."

"No, not at all." She looked straight into my eyes but this time, I didn't see hatred in her eyes or maybe I took her wrong. "I know you had to go through a lot even when you weren't at fault. But that still doesn't justify what you did or what you're doing. You could've proved yourself, struggled to be a good human so that no one would have to go through what you had to. You could've helped people and look at what you did, you destroyed so many lives.

Love is not a game that you'll want to win at any cost. Love is a feeling of freedom. If you'd have loved me, you'd have never tried to chain me up with you. Instead, you'd want me to be happy where ever I'd be. You're living in an illusion, all that I can do is to pray that you come out of the illusion as soon as you can."

This was a clear rejection from her. No one dared to reject me and even if anyone would, that would be their greatest mistake. I'd do anything to make them regret their decision but right now, I felt helpless. I wasn't strong enough to do anything to her, neither did I know what to say to defend myself.

"I don't know, but every time you stood for him, I wished to see myself in his place, every time you cared for him, I wished it to be me and I'd pay any price for that. I don't know what's your definition of love. You can define my emotions the way you want, you can all me evil, selfish, psycho or anything you want.

I don't know about love, but one thing is for sure, I loved the way you loved him."

I had no more words to say, so I walked out of the room to the next room and started thinking about her words. I didn't even realize the time, it's been five hours since she's here with me. And I want to be with her all the hours of my life. I'm scared I'll have to leave this feeling and I'll be all alone again. My eyes fell upon my desktop which was connected to the cctv camera in her room.

She was on the bed, just the way she was sitting few hours ago; without any fear or tiredness in her eyes.

"Aren't you scared?" She turned to look at cctv camera before giving a confident smile. "Not at all, I have faith in Aiden, I have faith in our love." Her voice was calm, but it created hurricane in my heart. I was looking at her, who was so calm when one of my man came running to me.

"Boss, someone has entered in our territory."

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So what will happen now? Who has entered into his territory? Tell me your guesses in the comments❤

_with maya, safuu❤