JONATHAN'S POV:

"If I die, I'll kill you as well. If I don't get her love, you won't get it as well." I was determined to do what I said and was all set to shoot him but as I targeted upon him, Helena stood in front of me. I was quick enough to pull my fingers out of trigger, I can't even imagine what would've I done if I'd have shoot her by any chance. I could've never forgiven myself.

"You're insane Jonathan. I had thought you were good at heart, the situation forced you to turn out into a human who you are today although you could've chosen a different path for yourself. But whatever you're doing is proving me wrong, I feel so disgusted with you right now, you're making me hate you. I told you before and I'm telling you once again Jonathan Atkinson, you are not in love with me. You are just in an illusion. It's still not late, put the gun down and surrender yourself."

After every thing I did to get her, I was still not able to have her. She was still standing by his side, protecting him. She said I was forcing her to hate me, that scared me off. I was a little happy that she didn't blame me for every thing but what if she hates me now? Surrendering? That's the last thing I'd want to do when I'm alive, I'd rather kill everyone and get shot than to be surrendered.

"Why should I surrender? Will I get what I want if I do so?" I asked to her with my gun still pointed at the same direction.

"I don't know about that. But maybe you'll get peace to your heart when you will realize what have you done all these years when you'll be alone. Maybe you'll cut off some of your sins, maybe you'll want to redeem yourself for the crimes you did. And who knows, if you get successful to bring change in yourself, you'll find someone who can accept your past and love the new you?"

She's so innocent, she's so pure. She still thinks I'll get time to redeem when in actual, I'd be either hung or gunshot for all the crimes I did. After all for a wanted criminal like me with charges of numbers of murders, kidnapping, trafficking, smuggling and lot more of crimes, imprisonment isn't enough of punishment. And even if I get blessed enough to get punished with imprisonment, I won't be able to survive in it. I'm a free bird with my own laws. I can't sustain in chains.

Moreover Aiden Rudolf won't spare a single chance to torture me until I beg for death. I can see that in his eyes already, I'm not surprised about it. I'd have done the same if it was me in his place; no real man can let go someone who tries to snatch his love, his happiness. After all, that's what I tried to do, that's what I'm fighting for; fighting for my love.

"Do you know how hard did I try to get you? I tried to get close to you with my genuine efforts, but I could never do that. When I was frustrated, I tried to make you mine after getting you drugged at that party. At least for once so that I could feel loved by you for once in my life. So that I could live all my life with that feeling. But I still couldn't get you, I still couldn't use my powers to get you. So what makes you feel that I'd trust on you that I'll ever find the love I want after going to jail when I'll be totally helpless?"

Her eyes widened when she heard my confession, disgust in her eyes didn't go unnoticed by me. I don't know if I'd have ever confessed it in my life if I'd not be in the situation I am in right now. But for now, I just want a single reason to stay close with her, I don't know why am I feeling like I'm losing everything.

"You see you couldn't get her even when you used your dirty tricks. Don't name your madness as love, love is pure and selfless. But all you had was your obsession, desire and selfishness. If it was love, you wouldn't do anything so low. Cause love teaches you to be strong and better, not the way you've turned out to be." Aiden Rudolf said it pulling her closer to him and even more far from me.

"I wish you could ever love someone to actually know what love is." She said those words so calm but it created storm inside my mind and heart.

Even after all the attempts I made, I still couldn't get her. Maybe she's right, maybe I'm paying price for whatever I did. Maybe after whatever I did, I don't deserve someone's love. Maybe I should've tried to help others not to go through what I had to like she said. Maybe then, I could've got her or the love I was yearning for. Maybe, I could've loved someone to understand what actually love is like she said.

I moved my eyes around me, all the guns were pointed at me. A single movement and I'd be gone. She was still standing in front of him, he was wrapping his arms around her being protective. Was this the end of my life?

After years of ruling and fighting, was this how I was supposed to get an end? An end without a happy ending that are mentioned in the stories, an ending without someone on my side, an ending where probably no one would cry for my death. I don't fear if I die today, I had stopped fearing for my life the day I picked up the gun for the first time.

But I won't let other's decide my fate, I won't stay caged under other's control. I got this freedom after spending fifteen years under my parent's and step mother's control, I ain't letting it go just like that.

"All this life, I've been free. No one owned that right to control me. I won't give this right to anyone at this moment as well. Maybe I wasn't loveable or respectable ever in my life but one thing is for sure. Jonathan Atkinson was, is and will always be free. Helena, I've never regretted anything in my life. I still don't regret anything, but I'm sorry for hurting you. Maybe, I'll turn out to be a good human in my next life."

Every one tightened their grip on the bullet. Maybe they thought I was going to shoot them so that I'd be killed when they shoot me back. But when I turned the gun towards my temple, they stepped back with their gun still pointed at me.

"Jonathan Atkinson, surrender yourself to us. I promise I'll help you in reducing your punishment." The commander ordered. I could see Aiden's heated nerves as well. He didn't want me to escape from him after all.

"Jonathan, please don't do it. You can still make your life better." She spoke, a smile crept on my lips when I saw softness for me in her eyes. At least she doesn't hate me to wish me to die. This is enough for me. I closed my eyes, every thing from my past reflected in front of me. That childhood I had to go through, the man I turned into, the moment I saw her, the moment I shared my past with her and finally... the moment when she stopped me for the last time. That was it, that's all it was.

"BANG!"

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