Kristopher POV

Today was a hectic day with almost no success.

I was frustrated not in the mood exactly

Lighting a cigarette i went to the terrace connected to my office and stared at the city

Normal people would stand here and admire the view for u couldn't find a single thing admire worthy in it.

i looked at the cigarette in my hand and that's when i remembered that Jude hates man who smokes

I quickly threw the cigarette on the floor and squeezed it using my shoes.

I really do what she likes in men but still she doesn't like me

she loathes me in fact but i can't help it cause i am lovesick.

she was the reason i didn't commit suicide and held on to my life.

She was the reason i killed my own father.

She is my greatest strength and greatest weakness

talking about killing my father made me remember the night three years ago.

that night was the biggest blessing in my life. That night gave me a eternal bond me and her and i became a father.

Gotta give Jude some praise as she was able to hide Derek's existence for so long.

Derek!!!!!

I can't stand the fact that she named him Derek.

If not for my do called father being the ass he always was i would have found out about Derek before.

3 years ago.....

The day Jude slapped me was the most humiliating day of my life.

Yes i was lovesick but i still had pride.

she didn't knew the danger i was in just because i was neglecting my fathers warning.

He was the reason i wanted to die while Jude was the reason i wanted to live.

soon the news of her husband taking her away spread like fire

which broke my heart even more.

was i so unworthy of love?

just a little bit of it would be enough for me to keep on holding onto my life.

It wasn't until i stood in front of the same river where i had first heard Jude singing didn't i realize that i was walking

"Should i just end it? living with all this pain.....would i ever get paid off?"

I didn't understood whether i was talking to myself or others

At this moment i look up in the sky

i never believed in God as i was an atheist

People say they have a religion as it give them a purpose of living.

If there is a God would you please for once listen to my one wish

i want a purpose and a reason.......to keep living on and not end this agony i call my life

As i was done making my wish i waited and waited and waited

but no response.

Sneering at my pathetic self i mocked my childishness

it's decided then....

let's end it right here right now

I prepared myself to jump inside the river after filling my pocket with rocks so that my body don't float on the surface

but suddenly i heard a pistol loaded and being aimed towards me

"You really are the biggest coward of all the cowards i have seen"

I know who she was......

if i explain in a sentence then the worst and biggest psycho after my father and if i explain in a word then sister

"are you going to stand there or move along with me?"

"Weren't you in Paris Celine?"

i turned around

"I came back to get married" She still had the pistol aimed at me

"For God sake Celine. we are siblings"

Yes we are blood siblings but our father wants us to get married because he wants to keep the wealth within the family.

What a pathetic and gross reason

"As if you believe in God Kristopher"