No one understands that I never had to feel the anger or the guilt like everyone else, she says. When you havent felt those types of emotions ever in your life, but suddenly start to feel them all. Every single one came full force at me.

I look at her, but my mind wanders. She never had to feel anything before, but now she has to deal with it; that must be hard to muster.

I have to say Ava, I say to her. I wouldnt know how to do what you are doing; going from not feeling anything ...