"I just need a few minutes please,"

She stares at me understanding without me having to explain, "I know what you're doing" the tone of her voice changes to that of sympathy. I look at her and the frown on her face matches mine, "I don't think he's coming honey" and that's all it took for my frown to turn to complete crying. "Oh Silas I know," she comes to me sitting next to me as I cry "this isn't going to be easy but you have to put on a brave face."

"I can't"

"Yes, you ...