"So, where's Helen? I haven't seen her." I ask Bella who was already on her phone.

"She went to the bathroom. She will be with us shortly."

I find myself looking around. What am I looking for?

"Are you looking for someone?" Bella asks.

"No, I'm not."

"You look like you are expecting someone." Bella tries to read through my thoughts.

"Where's your mum?" I asked her so she could stop asking questions.

"She's on her way." She says.

"So.....are you ...