I thought that life is so unfair. I even hated God for letting all of this happen.

I only loved one woman in my life, but why did God allow me to be the reason for her sufferings?

I hated God so much that I tried to kill myself. I feel like, my mere existence is the cause of the suffering of many people. The suffering of the people I love.

They said when you don't understand, you just need to trust ...