It's been several months since that day, and now looking back at it, I realize that I was completely wrong. I should have never touched Kelly or even had that reaction to her at all. Now, I don't know what to do anymore, because even though Arabella has largely forgiven me, I really do not think she will ever completely.

I love her and the pups so much, but I can see it in her eyes. The way she stares at me with longing, I know that she won't allow herself to do anything about it ...