Ben had the guts to laugh at me while placing his both legs on his desk, I didn't know what to say to him right now. In fact I don't want to say anything that would encourage him to continue this snickering so I kept everything I wanted to say to myself till I figure it out eventually.

He was going to make a big deal out of it and pressurize me into doing something stupid like talking to her and I Wasn't ready for that kind of big step and I didn't want it getting out of hand being too ...