I know for a fact he won’t want me to fly to the city and take up my old position. He barely wants to go back himself lately, and moving here will make it final. The truth is that I thought my insecurities would change, that I would have some epiphany that I was finally with the man I would be with forever, and they would all go away. That I would be happy to be kept by him, but all the doubts, fears, and insecurities have remained. And I wonder if I am destined to be plagued with them ...