I shake the thought aside and quickly open my email app, logging into my personal account. Before I can linger on my confusing thoughts, there are two.

Jake Carrero has sent you an iTunes song.

Jake Carrero has sent you Beyoncé–Halo.

Attached message – I never had a way to resist letting you in. You’re my angel baby. The light in my world, the reason I want to be better, you’re in everything I look at. You’re always around me even when you’re not here. ...