Even Arry’s presence would have killed Claude’s urge to try. Even though to friends Arry is a laid-back boy with a lot of patience and a relaxed manner, other men seem intimidated by him so effortlessly. As though they can tell that under that kind face and easy smile is a mean and trained killing machine with a hell of a knockout punch.

I stare at my screen for longer than necessary, at the selfie of us on holiday last summer when he took me to Hawaii. I look happy and carefree ...