Baking with them brings back a lot of memories, good and bad. I often sat in this kitchen over the years and let Sylvana, in her own way, help me get through. I met Arrick in this very kitchen for the first time, and even though I stayed to get some free headspace, he’s plaguing me crazily.

Maybe I should have gone somewhere alone and booked a hotel for a few days instead of the place where most of our memories lie to get at me with every turn. I thought I needed space from him, yet ...