Asshole of epic proportions. I still do not know why I kissed her. Can’t even begin to analyze how it felt now the immediate feelings are fading from memory. When I try to, I get this huge overwhelming heavy blackness, which is pretty damn close to an all-out panic attack, and I am so not ready to face that yet. I haven’t been able to stop thinking about her though.

That has been driving me to the brink of insanity, and I wish I had never done this to myself. Opened that can of ...