Even if I manage to salvage a friendship, Natasha doesn’t want me to know her anymore. I betrayed her with Sophie, she would never want her near me again. Especially not left alone for the two of us to cuddle up on the couch for a movie night like we loved so much. She has all but begged me to promise to never go back to how it was with Sophs. That our relationship, even if I see her again would stay completely distant and polite and no threat to her.

I couldn’t, I can’t promise ...