‘’I swear to God, you WILL do as I say, and if you dare run …’’ Low and steady, the danger tone that brings all my hair to stand on end, but I bite down and ignore the warning.

‘’What? What if I run, huh? What will you fucking do to me? Choke me half to death and snap my fucking neck? Maybe I don’t give a shit anymore, Alexi! Maybe I don’t give a toss about what you want me to do.’’ I am goading him, my anger biting through tears and my voice as equally venomous ...