All because I want to see him while he doesn’t want to see me because he is sending me to be someone else’s problem and no longer wants anything to do with me. He is taking what I worked so hard for away. I know this is why this heightened panic has hit me in this way, this sense that tonight is the last chance I will have of seeing him. Getting this out between us!

He is not easy to get time with as he’s always shrouded with his men or moves around a lot. You don’t bump into ...