The drunker they all get, the quieter and more detached I am. Not sure how to play people pleaser and social queen in this situation among genuine people. Regretting coming if this is a sign of how my night will be. I feel empty and so very sad. I have no goal or motive other than to enjoy myself… I don’t know how to be like that. I never once had to look inwards and ask myself what makes me have fun or how to be happy. My life has never been about that—it’s always been about ...