Sex, confessions, Rick, and life in general around Alexi. It’s all a messy, confusing bundle of a mixed and chaotic mess. Trying to slice open all I thought I knew and add this new insight to every detail. Trying to take away the obvious and apply a lot of double meanings to see Alexi acting like someone who gave a shit instead of someone who didn’t.

And that one burning question is sending me into an emotional meltdown.

What now?

I know I love him; no matter how hard I ...