He wants to keep me safe, and I need to stop being suspicious of his motives and relax with him. Seeing control when he is being cautious is my biggest flaw. He loves me. I need to remind myself of that every second. Even if it’s hard to feel like it’s true sometimes. He gives me more than sex; he gives me him and tender moments, access to his deeper gentle side. He gives me time away from his world, so it’s just Lexi And Cam.

I know I will easily get both if that’s what I ...