Perhaps I could still honour him by going to train regularly and show him how much I could improve and that I wasn't lazy anymore and could train. Perhaps it would make him happy with me and he would be proud of me.

"Okay i'll do that" I said to her and pulled of the clothes I was wearing, I wasn't going to throw them away and I dont think I'll ever throw them away but instead I could wash them and wear them whenever I miss him or whenever I want to train. It'll bring his presence ...