My mind drifted to Jade. Where was she now? What was she doing? I wanted her in my life so desperately, but I’d hurt her. She’d asked me if our relationship was real and if I was serious about the long haul, and after saying yes, I’d said no. It had been wrong of me.

I typed her name into a search engine online. I wanted to see her face. I wanted to talk to her, call her, hold her, and kiss her, but seeing her face would have to be enough for now.

When I searched her name, ...