Ben's voice breaks on the last word,his head dips and he hides his face in his palms.I stare at the back of his head.He doesn't sound convinced of his words.And I know it is a lie he has told himself so much and for so long he believes it.Josef and Maddie are in love.He might lie to himself about a lot of things but not that.

　　His eyes close and tears leak down to his cheeks.I wipe them and place a kiss on his forehead the same way he does to comfort me.Maybe I am doing this ...