I woke up right before anyone could do, it had become part of me, waking up so early no matter how late I slept, I got out of the bed feeling weak but I am not ready for another round of beating or torture, it has been so much recently,

　　I had passed through a lot that I wondered if I should take my life, the hatred was too much, everyone, just every single person hates me deeply and raw, seeing me was enough to spoil their day, they will always act like I am a kind of ...