Amber's POV

　　The ray of sunshine flashed across the room, lighting it dimly as I struggled to open my eyes because of the pain I felt in my body. Nash had his way with me last night again, my lips are broken as he forced his dick into my mouth because I refused to suck him.

　　It's a new day and I turn around to find an empty space beside me. Nash was gone after I could not satisfy him. I could feel Thalia groaning inside me.

　　"He is definitely having his way with another one of his whores"

　　"I cannot allow it to deter me from what I had to do", I cautioned Thalia.

　　Today is the National celebration of our kingdom. Regardless of my jawline that looks lean and my eyes swollen from constant crying and my heart sunken in pain, my cheeks are red and my hands had bruises from the belt Nash used on me for refusing to make him cum twice.

　　I had to prepare and be present as the Luna of the Luparian Kingdom. My tummy could no longer be hidden as it had protruded out so much but amidst all the glory was a wolf lost in pain and a sorrowful heart waiting to explode.

　　Nash has only grown from bad to worse as each day was an episode of pain and regret for me and Thalia and I could no longer hide it, even with the make up on my face always did a poor job.

　　Two years ago Nash subdued dozens of wolf packs after he fought and defeated them. He took men and women as captives. The women became slaves in his palace while the men became his soldiers. Every other pack was now unified to form the Luparian Kingdom, where Nash is the Alpha. Everyone feared him.

　　Everyone sees me as a modest and prestigious Luna, some young female wolves envied my position and wished to be me but l I hated every second I spent as the Luna of Nash.

　　I had sometimes hoped someone would see through my fake smile and my forced laughter to see my pain but no one dared to speak up. To them Nash was the best mate ever and I was honoured to be his mate and Luna.

　　If only they knew behind the walls of the palace was a wolf thorn in shreds and an empty soul, not better than a slave in the palace of my mate, they would never wish to be me. I had no one to talk to, nobody would even believe me. I was left to my fate, to shoulder the pain and agony alone.

　　Nash is way too smart to be caught in the act, even though my screams would sometimes echo through the entire palace, no one dared to question the Alpha, as he was the almighty Nash who subdued kingdoms and unified the wolf packs.

　　Once the head maid rushed in when he was having his way with me forcefully and asked if everything was ok? She said she heard loud screams and was concerned

　　"My wife likes it rough and her wish is my command" Nash said to her

　　I smiled at the head maid and she went away. That was the last I saw her, whatever happened to her I could not tell.

　　After running through my wardrobe and picking the best dress to match my alluring figure, I applied makeup to cover parts of my body that were red and bruised, so no one would see the marks.

　　A maid knocked on my door and told me about the latest developments.

　　"Ma'am the Alpha has asked you to stay behind in the palace, that you are not needed on the celebration ground"

　　This is definitely Nash’s way of hiding me from the public, he does not want anyone to see me this way. Broken and battered.

　　I knew better than to throw tantrums and yell at the maid, she was just doing her job. I thanked her and she walked away. Most of the maids in the palace saw me like a slave since I was not treated any better than them.

　　I went back into my room feeling a little relieved. Walking by the side of Nash was just an act of hypocrisy as he has never considered me his mate. I was just a vessel to bring forth his heir and satisfy him sexually.

　　The only reason I wanted to be at the celebration was to see my family. I had missed them even though they turned deaf ears to my cries and frustration. All that mattered to them was seeing me as Luna, making them the Alpha's in-law.

　　I went up to the abandoned attic of the palace to view the celebration and possibly see my family members. I gently pushed the window open and the dust got into my throat but I held my mouth to avoid coughing and attracting anyone's attention. It was a very nice view for me.

　　Shortly I see my parents dressed in royal apparel, majestically walking in holding hands and waving to everyone as they walked by. They were influential because their daughter was Luna. I turned to the other side and I could see my brother also at the centre of attraction where he was standing, looking all glammed up like a king. This was all that mattered to them. Their appearance and prestige, what they had to gain at the detriment of my own joy.

　　I thought that was all, I wanted to sit down on the dusty floor and wallow in pity but suddenly my eyes caught the sight of Nash walking into the celebration ground accompanying his mistress openly. My jaw dropped and I wondered why he could condescend so low to humiliate himself.

　　Little did I know Nash had everything already figured out. The people began to ask why there Luna is not at the celebration ground but Nash putting on a pathetic face said

　　"It saddens my heart that Amber cannot make it to the celebration ground tonight, she is sick and is undergoing medical intervention"

　　Nash holding the hands of the daughter of one of the Alpha of the small packs under him. She was shamelessly touching and kissing him in front of the whole crowd. She was sending a message and showing her place in his life.

　　What a waste I thought!!

　　I felt a bolt of lightning pass through me as I never expected Nash to depict me in such a manner. The people began to murmur.

　　Some said I was a weakling and did not deserve to be his mate, some said the moon goddess chose wrongly for Nash, that he deserved someone strong and capable to be his Luna. While others were of the opinion that I was proud and spoiled and would never be able to keep up with my responsibilities as Luna.

　　All their words broke my heart as none of them saw through the pain he was inflicting on me. I sat down on the dusty floor not even worried about the large spiders hanging on the wall or the cockroaches and rats moving about and I broke out in tears.

　　My life was a mess but the people around only cared about their reputations and my role in the pack.

　　I sat down there soaked in my own tears when I heard footsteps approaching me. I tried to wipe my eyes but it was too late as the door was pushed open and someone walked in.

　　I lifted my eyes and saw it was Everett.

　　I was shocked. How did he find me here? I asked myself

　　But before I could say or do anything, he pulled me into his arms and embraced me closely.

　　Everett is Nash's brother and the Beta of our pack. I could count how many times I have seen and spoken to him. He is the quiet and reserved type who hardly mingled with others. He was never in support of the way Nash ruled the kingdom.

　　He asked why I was here crying and not on the celebration ground?

　　"I am undergoing medical intervention" I said to him, imitating what Nash said earlier.

　　"Oh please spare me that bullshit, I know better than that"

　　I did not know how to react to him because he came from the same womb as Nash who is the reason why I am here crying and my nose dripping with mucus, so I stood up and tried to leave but he held my hands and told me that I could count on him.

　　I looked at him for a little while then I let go of his hands and ran away.

　　But while I hurriedly went down the stairs one question kept ringing in my ears, how did he find me?