I sat on the couch with my legs wrapped on each other. I held a handful of chips while I used my other hand to adjust the blanket on my body. It rained and so I was cold. I turned on the TV and used the remote to control it.

I kept my eyes fixated on the TV show while stuffing the chips in my mouth. I chewed gently and just watched the TV show. I was trying my best to not think about what happened last night with Xavier. I woke with a sudden flush of realization and I felt dirty.

I couldn’t ...