"The sorrow delayed my healing; I felt like I had no purpose and all I desired was to end my life and be with her. Tony moved us and continued to encourage me. Nearly three years following the events, I remained immobilized and far from healing. I recall Tony shouting at me, labeling me as pathetic for letting Alyssa come out on top; it was the first time I experienced a real emotion. Fury. I was determined to avenge Ciara, and I would see it through. I set everything aside and focused on my ...