NUMB HEART, YET FEELS THE PAINS FROM NEEDLES

NEZIRA

I stormed out of Flora, Freda and Dwayne and headed straight to my room to cry my eyes out. If I hadn’t witnessed this I could swear on my life that Dwayne would never cheat on me. He was what I would refer as the perfect man. Although he had nothing but his honesty drew me closer to him.

I never judged the fact that he was born with an iron spoon, I didn’t care that he clothed himself with rags yet I still fell in love with him. Suitors came but I turned them down just because of Dwayne. Ever since my parents death, Lots of people became interested in me just so they could inherit my properties knowing their plot, I never gave in. I looked foolish for an heiress getting married to a pauper but I never cared. I did all I could to push him to this height. Ten years of investment all down the drain. I would never let that bastard in Freda’s womb inherit what I have.

Freda, on the other side had been my friend from college days. We were what you can refer as inseparables. We had been there for each other during thick and thin. She was the lively one amongst us. We were sisters but now I canl’t say that anymore. I never expected such betrayal from people I built and trusted. Now I’m the fool. To the world I’m the smartest female CEO but here I’m the reverse. I’m betrayed but now I’m mocked by those who stabbed me. I’m not stabbed at the back alone but also stabbed in my abdomen.

I wipe my eyes. Just six months. That’s what I have. I must act fast then. I heard a knock at my door. Then the door opened. Flora came in. I cleaned my eyes, looking straight at her.

“Nezi, dinner’s set. You have to come.” She said as she sat on the corner of my bed.

“I’m not hungry Flora. You can eat with your new daughter-in-law and son.” I said as I stood up from the bed and wore my slippers.

“Nezi, Freda did that for you. You’re the only one misunderstanding this. She sacrificed herself for you. It’s hard for us all that you’ll soon leave us. We’re trying hard to hold ourselves and we want to become a mom.”

“That way you’ll be able to clear your conscience. I’m not a fool Flora. Dwayne cheated on me with my bestie and you see nothing wrong in it? You should reprimand them yet you call that sacrifice? If Aaron did same to you, would you call that sacrifice? I took you as a mother figure but I guess after my parents left, I’m all alone. My mistake is falling in love with your son and getting married to him.” I said sniffing hard, Flora’s eyes on the bed sheet as she drew imaginary lines on the bed sheet.

“We wanted you to carry a child before you died. We wanted you to feel the pang of motherhood at least once. I love you not just as a daughter-in-law but as a daughter.” Flora said backing up her claims. It hurt me that she shamelessly said these things.

“Really, then advice Rosaline’s husband to sleep with her bestie. I mean Rosaline is looking forward to conceiving.” Rosaline has been married for years and yet still awaiting a child.

“Rosaline’s case is different. She’ll conceive with time.” She fired as I couldn’t help but laugh at her stupidity. She’s different from me really. A lowlife remains a low life.

“Oh her’s is different and mine you thought it was wise of you to call cheating sacrifice? I’m disappointed in you Flora.” I fired back as she stood up.

“Nezi, enough of us calling each other names. You need to take your drugs. Let’s go eat.” She said as I sighed. For some reason, I wish I could live longer. I followed her to the dining room. Dwayne seating next to Freda, his hands on her thighs. They become more shameless per second.

“Freda, you look good.” Flora complimented as Freda blushed while I scoffed them I sat down opposite them. Then I dished out two spoonful of rice and prawn sauce in my plate, About to sit down.

“Nezira, why don’t you help dish out rice and sauce for Freda.” Dwayne suggested as I glared hard at him then Freda and I sat down.

“Yiu know she’s pregnant and carrying your heir. So, it’s stressful for her. Just be a darling and help her.” Flora said backing Dwayne’s words up.

“I didn’t impregnate her. Mr. Sperm donor why don’t you do the favour of dishing out food for your sperm recipient.” I said as the dining got quiet. Dwayne stood up and took the dishing spoon. I ate slowly. The atmosphere at the dining was intense.

“Yh Flora, I forgot to tell you, the child in my womb is boy. I’m super happy. Aren’t you happy for me Nezi?” Freda asked as I nearly spat my food in shock. The child in her womb is a male and she sits and mocks me openly. I looked up to her then Dwayne and back to my food.

“I do not celebrate bastards.” I said as I took another spoonful. The dining room became quiet again.

“The child is no bastard but Family.” Dwayne said in a form manner, I raised my face and stared at him.

“Of course he’s family to the Zayne’s but a bastard to the Dante’s. My family never accommodate bastards.” I said as Flora cleared her throat.

“No child is a bastard and Congratulations Freddie.” Flora said smiling then glared at me. “Nezi, you have to stop and accept reality.” Flora suggested. My appetite died instantly. If reality is accepting a bastard into the Dante family, I disagree.

“If no child is a bastard, what do you call a child from a home wrecker? How would you feel if Rosaline’s home was wrecked? You being silent means you wouldn’t wish this reality for your child. But you urge me to accept it as reality.” I said bitterly as I stood up leaving my food which I had hardly eaten.

“Nezi, just admit that you’re pained and you…..” I didn’t want to hear what ever nonsense she had to say, I blocked my ears with my air pod and left the dinning room. Then I headed to my matrimonial room, at least they can’t do anything while I’m here.

Few minutes later, the door opened. Expecting to see only Dwayne bit he was with company. They really got shameless per second. Freda’s wrapped her legs around his waist and her arms around his shoulders. They were kissing passionately, his hands grabbing her buttocks then he shove them inside her panties. She released a loud moan. Watching them broke my heart. A feeling I’ve missed for half a year. Dwayne never touched me, I hugged my pillows when I was horny. Let me say it was pregnancy but now I’m not pregnant same thing. And here he is making out with a sixth month pregnant woman. I swallowed my saliva hard. My tears seem to be wasting. I thought that they would pause while I’m here but they continued shamelessly. Now their dresses on the floor. I can’t sit and watch this anymore.

“Why don’t you book a motel or a lodge? Must you be shameless?” I asked as Dwayne continued fingering Freda without looking at me. Freda said amidst moaning.

“You complained about being sexually starved, why don’t you join us for a threesome? It would be fun. Your resentment is due to the built up horniness.” Freda suggested while moaning. They never cared that I was there now shamelessly offering me to be part of a threesome. Dwayne then shoved his dick into her, she moaned out loud. I felt wet, yes I’m horny but I can’t be ridiculed. I walked out of my matrimonial room and headed to my room. I’ll rather sleep with a hobo than join them in a threesome. I opened my wardrobe, I still had those sexy gown. I picked up a black princess short coat that had a micro length with a fencenet thigh. Then I wore leg warmers with a pair of black leather over the knee boots. I wasn’t unattractive it was life that made me change my dressing. I brushed my hair letting them fall free. A sign of freedom. Then applied my makeover. Within minutes I transformed from a housewife to a baddie. I looked at my reflection on the mirror them smiled. I took my purse and my phone and valuables were in it. Walking to the living room, Flora sat down watching a program on the television.

“Nezira, it’s late. Where are you heading to?” She asked feigning concern.

“I just want to clear my head. Lock the door.” I replied as I left the house and started my car.