I have experienced loss. I have felt despair, wanting to plunge into the abyss. Embracing a lifeless body to keep it close. The fear was so strong, it crashed into me, causing me to lose my sense of direction in life.

And I don't want that to happen again this time. I know that loss is very real, looming so close. I don't know when my time, my father's time, or even my mother's time will come. I know that clearly, but still... this heart cannot turn away from sadness and brokenness.

I ...