The truth I wanted, the truth I've been pressing him to tell me hits me like a truck, and my heart drops, what was I thinking to even pressure him into giving me an answer? My legs involuntarily move backward until they hit the bed and I sit. Leon closes his eyes momentarily, regretting his words but he's already said it. 

Why do I feel bad though? This is the truth I've been wanting to hear right? Why is my heart clutching? 

" I- I," He stutters,  pressing his hand to his forehead. 

" Why ...