NOTE: The Male lead is still foolish, so bare with him, the dashing second male lead haven't come yet to sweep him off his feet and ruin his life, hehehe

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JAMIE

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Monday 5th of January, 2025

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Okay t would go well, okay it would go well....

Those words like a mantra...

I kept on saying it all day until now, no....am still saying it in my head, cause I believe if you kept saying something all the time, it would become reality, or something like that....Am really not a philosophical person or whatever, and I really don't believe in miracles, but if there's one thing I want is for the hottest most awesomest (If that's even a word), girl in the school to become mine today

To be the most frank i could ever be, I've spent all weekend planning and going crazy, or should I say crazier than ever before to come up with the most prettiest words, prettiest look, prettiest lines to say to her: "Amy" that would consider me fit for a boyfriend....I even went as far as to buy a new perfume, but in the end, I concluded that just being myself was the best option.

"Let her see you for you, and accept you for you"

Those words....

I can still vividly remember how dear oh Miles became a wise prophet the minute he told me that, but I still kinda don't want to fully believe him...To be honest, I kinda still doubt his words...

I mean...Ugh!

What am trying to say is that what if my glasses turn her off, or what if she is irritated by my braises, and plus, I don't have the kind of sparkly bright eyes that Miles has that can win any heart, I have dull good for nothing brown ones, or should I say Russell maybe....I really don't know, but the point is that if my bubble gum fairy ever decide that am not good for her then am finished, and no, I wasn't exaggerating when I say that I don't know if my heart would be able to take it , but here goes nothing....

I adjusted my curly hair with the little face mirror that only god knows where on earth Miles got it from, and held the flowers again.

I know I know that flowers looks like last year proposal gift, but hey, you can't blame me, cause buying something like a car for her is crazily expensive and I got no cash....and....and...

"Hello, earth to Jamie...."

He, Miles flicks his finger and brought me out of memory lane, before moving closer to me....He always moves closer to me when he wants to say things

"You can't screw this up, okay?"

He pats my shoulder and tells me and I nodded a hundred million times like some kind of obedient dog, and he liked it. I knew the did, cause I saw the little smile that appeared at the corner of his lips, even though he tried to hide it, but when he realized I already knew he liked being the big adviser guy or whatever, he decided to become Mr. devil again and tease the sh*t out of my leg

"But if in the end, she sadly rejects you, am always here to wipe the tears off your butt, I mean face"

He flicked my head, busted out laughing and ended up laughing harder when I tried to punch him and fail...Damnit!

"Hahaha, really funny"

I rolled my eyes, and we both got out of the corner we were, and before I knew it, like in a blink of a d*mn eye, I was standing right in front of the girl of my dreams and it was all because of that two face sore loser fault, he pushed me when I was close enough to her

D*mn you Miles, I mumbled silently under my breath, but still my face was rooted on the ground, cause I really didn't know how to do it....and the confidence that deep down I really never clearly had was gone

God kill me already....

I know I might sound dramatic, but at that very point, I really did wish God had made me girl not a guy that have to be the one to ask the girl out. I really f*ck*ng wished that I was that Mr. hot guy that effortlessly get all the girls no matter what he f*ck*ng does

D*mn, I could admire my forever from afar, but standing in front of her, that was the one thing that I wasn't brave enough in doing.....

Oh God really kill me already.....

I shouldn't have listen to Miles advice, I should have tried to look better, take off my glasses or something, but wait, even if I take off my glasses, I don't have any fine eyes to brag about now do I?...

God am really so screwed here, do something, ANYTHING!!!

"Hello...uh...You're Jamie right???"

Those words...that voice.....that one melodious voice....Her voice...

It was only when she spoke out that I finally had the gut to look up at her heavenly face, but still my words....my words that were scattered all over my head became b*llsh*t

"Hi, am Jamie and you probably already know me, cause you just said my name minutes ago and hahaha..."

F*ck me!....

Why was I f*ck*ng laughing when nothing was funny in the slightest, shut up already!

I screamed to myself and stepped on my right foot and it was only then did my d*mn mouth decided to shut up, but by then, all she had written on her face was a "You are still a confusing weirdo guy just like the first time I was you" kind of look, and I hated it, I hated it so much, hated the d*mn awkwardness, I wanted to end it as soon as possible, or just die already.

The look on her face made me wanted the ground to open up and bury me or I should just disappear, cause I didn't wanted this to happen. F*ck!, I wanted to be Mr. cool guy, but I should have knew that a nerd like me was and would forever be a nobody, and that was f*ck*ng fact that I should just accept, but even though I already knew that I stood no chance, still my lips decided to part again, cause I didn't wanted to regret not speaking my mind to her at all

"I....." At first, the rest of my words trailed off, but I immediately put myself back together and looked up to her face.

"I've always liked you Amy..."I confessed, I finally brought those very words out of my lungs, but I was too scared to see the reaction she had, so I looked back at the ground and kept on talking

"I know you properly don't know me that well, and it might sound odd, and...and...Ugh...

I gulped down my saliva, but still I just had to continue either way....

"What am saying is that you have only talked to me for once, but still that's not a justification for not liking you cause I do, I really really like you that it is literally killing me everyday to stay quiet anymore....I like you so much that I became foolish to do this, cause I really don't want anyone to take you away from me and....

"Hey...."

I heard her voice again, she cut my long epistle off and it immediately killed half of the dying life inside me. I know I should have expected this, this refusal, this tragedy like it always happens to me, but still it cut twice more than how I had thought it would go, cause she let me down quickly and the sweetest apple of my eyes that I loved became as cold as ice

"We....we can become friends, but not lovers...I don't think that would ever be possible...."

She whispered those words out but it was loud enough for me to hear, she chuckled even after that, and it made me feel foolish of myself for this act, like this awful feeling immediately consumed me and made me feel like nothing but a clown, cause deep down, even though she said she can be my friend, I knew too well that was a lie, I needed no one to tell me that the only reason she said it was not to look cold, but she failed, cause her very words stayed like poison in my veins....

"You should go..."

A voice in my head told me that, and I really wanted to go, but then my legs became frozen before I could move, and I guess it was because deep within my agonizing bitter broken heart, there was one question that was burning within me like hot fire, and....and I....said it....Yes, I became bold enough to say it out loud

"If you really don't like me at all, and could reject me this shitty way, then who on d*mn earth is dancing in your heart"

Even though I became a beast, and my words and my tone was so not right, still I didn't care, my jealous hurting heart really didn't. Instead, it wanted....no, it was burning to know the mad guy who managed to beat me to win her over, and I was grateful for the fact that she didn't mind my tone, but became more of a beast immediately she pointed one of her little fingers to the side.....to him....

Him with the darkest color of eyes, wavy brown hair, a sculptured face, and some drawing hidden behind the collar of his uniform, but my eyes was sharp enough to see that. Him!!!....Him???

He was truly a god compared to me, but apart from his perfectly perfect designed everything he had, his eyes were the ones that caught my attention the most, cause they were.....looking....looking at me....staring....piercing deeply.....They look....dead, emotionless, that you can't really figure out what exactly was going on, but at the same time, they were still staring at me as if they already knew how much I already hated them, but still.....still

He was staring at me from afar, deep into the corridors, but I saw him, caught him red handed and normally, I should have questioned, and thought to myself why on earth he was looking at way, alone and isolated from the world, but I f*ck*ng cared less, cause he alone was now my bloody rival and the thief that stole the heart of the girl that was suppose to be mine, but...but...but I should have knew faaaaaaaaar better, cause immediately my heart, mind and soul registered him a rival was as fast as how my whole life began to change, and I caused it, cause I saw the devil isolated from the world, and still I was intrigued, I wanted to know him, to dig out all his secret, to ruin this aura of mystery and swag that was f*ck*ng hanged around him. I, Jamie Green wanted to ruined him, to make the devil regret ever being mysteriously hot and ruining all my chances of a happy fairy tale, but curiosity like they say kills the cat....

I got entangled in his web, and I....died