JAMIE

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There's one saying that fancies me, and it goes like this: Life is unfair, there is the rich, and there is the poor, the wise and the dumb, boy and girl and the pretty and the ugly, and unfortunately for me, I fell among the ugly, but there's absolutely no shitty way I'd give up because of that!!....That two face sore loser!, Never!

There's really absolutely no f*ck*ng way that I would ever allow my crush and my lover to become all lovey dovey with that abomination of a guy that two words have never let that stupid lips of his....

Tsk, I pray he's mute, or but still, even if my wish turns out to be true and he is indeed mute, wouldn't she keep on liking him?...

That thought, that foolish question that wants to drain my energy pops into my mind, but I immediately flush it away, cause I didn't wanted to kill myself, and especially not after I have went through measures just for her alone

Measures?....what measures?.... I'll tell you all.

Do you guys really think that I would go cry my eyes out cause I got rejected, when I know that the only reason she must have like him is because of his look, so I decided it was time for me to have a little pretty boy makeover as well. God, I could still fully remember how I went to the salon after school. Yes, am that psychopathic over a girl....Am that psychopathic that I could finally part ways with my stupid glasses and start using contact lens,...

Am really f*ck*ng psychopathic that I could straighten my hair, and kill all of my curls, cause now it's not all about winning the bubblegum angel's heart anymore, but also beating that silent enemy in his own game (Even though I've never spoke to him before), but who cares, as long as Amy is mine, and he's the sore face loser, then am the king of the world, and one part best is that that bright eyes Miles even doesn't know about my new look, cause I didn't take him along, because I want it to be a surprise to him to also see the new me, or should I say the new Mr. handsome

I looked at my reflection in the mirror one last time with a wide blushing smile on my face. Yes, I the greatest ex nerd Jamie Green was indeed making himself blush, but who cares, I deserved it, so it was all good, but I couldn't keep staring or should I say keep admiring my reflection at the mirror like this forever, or else I would be late to school and my whole pretty boy makeover phrase would be over before it even started

Never!.....

I mumbled under my breath and hanged my school bag. God, if only we weren't wearing school uniform, am sure I would've rock with black leather boots and cool cloth, not this checkers whatever last season uniform that's so unattractive, but there's really nothing I can do, now can I?, and to say that was one of the most greatest thing I could was an understatement, cause it was more, so much more being the face of the school, the attention every one focuses their big and small eyes on, and the one that also made Miles eyes pop out so widely than I've ever seen before

"Whoa bro, are you...you are....

"Gorgeous aren't I?"

With a wide satisfied smirk on my face, I completed his sentence and flipped my hair like a model, and it made his bright eyes grow more wider that it made me kinda blush....I mean his reaction was just everything!

"You are so pretty"

He moved closer to me and touch my cheek, and it made my blush harder, I mean it wasn't that my heart was pounding hard for my best friend or anything like that....Hell no, but...I....it was just that...the truth was that it was the first time ever that anyone and I mean it when I said anyone had ever complimented me this way...

"So this is how it felt to be a gemstone, huh"

I smiled wider and tried to speak, but he stopped me again with his stare, but there was something about that stare that I didn't quite understand about that very stare...that....His stare started to look like that of mine to Amy, like attraction, but it's obviously just me that misunderstand, cause that would be so..

Ugh!, I shook the thought out of my head, cause I don't know what to make from it, and moved a step away from him, before his bright piercing eyes engulfed me...

"Uhmm....I...."

Why was I stammering, I had no clue, but I really just wanted to forget about what the f*ck I just thought about, so I decided to occupy my head with Amy again

"Am going to try to win her over again"

I said it one go and diverted my gaze away from him, I still don't know why I did that, but I did, and he made this strange awkward worst by only saying one word

"Oh"

"Oh?"

I repeated after him, and arched one of my eyebrows up, cause...

"What on earth is that suppose to mean, you are suppose to like root for me"

I questioned him even further and folded my arms, but when I realized that this sh*t that was going on, could make us become distant, I decided it was best to just leave and focus on Amy again, cause spending anymore time with Miles would scatter my brain even further, and make me feel more....weird, and I don't want to do that, I really don't want to do so, cause what kind of freaking friend would start to behave strange with the other person just because he has changed his look? It f*ck*ng doesn't make any sense at all and....

"Amy!"

As if I wasn't p*ss*d off, and thinking of anything just now, immediately I sighted my bubblegum angel, I couldn't help but to call out to her, even though I haven't really planned on what to say to her yet, or how to convince her to give me a chance, but there's really no going back, is there?....

I really can't lose to that tattoo guy make-believe, Never!

Just like usual, she catwalks up to me with her beautiful body immediately she heard me, okay....it's not like it's only her body that's beautiful nor am I a body pervert or anything, and...and...ugh, shut up already!

I shut my stupid explanatory self up as soon as she was close enough and looked up to her face, and this time I had a little bit more confidence than more, cause when I arrived at this hellhole of a school earlier today, and winked at her, she actually smiled back, so I was really certain that my chances were high, she wouldn't reject me for the second time, right?

Just by looking at her glorious face, I couldn't help but to smile out like an idiot, but still that wasn't going to stop me from having round two with her!

"I did this look for you, I hope you know that"

Indeed and yet again, I was f*ck*ng honest as I could ever be, cause I really see any point in beating around the bush, or going in circles, plus I also heard from an online app that if you are honest and open, girls would like you more (Okay okay, I know that there's still a little bit of nerdy syndrome in me), but I could really do anything for her, her alone

"I really do like you Amy"

I pierced my Russell eyes deeper into hers, and that's was when a little bit of nervousness started entering into the picture, cause immediately she heard me, her eyes widened before returning back to normal, but still I was keen on saying everything again, but....she.....

She didn't let me finish and yet again, I fell into Deja vu, but a far more shitter one that I could ever be in....