At as the light exploded, I stiffened as I came back to my senses. What was I doing? How could I allow Sylvester touch me so intimately this way? I was filled with disgust at my wanton behaviour.

'Sylvester', I said, 'what are you doing?' I pushed him away with much force, that he fell backwards but I couldn't care less.

'What do you mean?' he asked puzzled.

'What do I mean?' I asked, looking at him furiously. 'You want to take advantage of me and you act as though you do not know what I was ...