The feeling that Adrian still wanted to try to get back with Iris kept nudging at me. My mind kept trailing off and I had to to keep saying, ' Sorry, what did you say?'

I wondered why Adrian was the only person I felt might actually succeed in winning Iris' love. Yes, apart from maybe Sean....

Then unbidden again, the scene at the garden with Lyndon flashed through my mind. 'Oh God!' I exclaimed in my mind. 'What is happening to me?' How can I want a fellow man? Here I was trying desperately ...