Those three days were the longest of my life because I kept thinking about what I would say to Cyrus when I finally saw him and what I would do after I got the answers I needed.

Jax stayed close to me the whole time because he could tell I was struggling and one night he found me in the training yard at two in the morning hitting a punching bag until my knuckles bled.

"You need to stop," he said catching my fist before I could throw another punch.

"I can't," I said and my voice came out raw ...