Well I didn’t travel to Portugal anymore after that. I didn’t go back to work either and I just didn’t keep why. Beth kept nagging at me to open up but I possibly couldn’t just tell her that me and mark had fucked.

For all my boldness I felt shy now when I think of it. Mark and I hadn’t seen each other since then, though he still called to check on me. I had the feeling that he was avoiding me, but I didn’t want to just judge yet.

Now that I had known what it meant to have him ...