Lucien

The time for my beating has come and gone.

For some reason, this alarms me more. I know the guards didn’t come because they forgot—something else is going on, and I’m immediately worried and this makes me think about Gianna.

What if she was caught?

What the fuck do I do then?

I’m restless and in pain. I’m thirsty. Starving. Everything feels wrong. I’m going to be a father and now, I don’t know if I’m going to live long enough to see my son be born.

I know what I ...