I realized it was better to kill a hundred people with my own hands than see myself controlled by the curse and likely kill thousands or more. From what I had experienced, the curse was willing to kill anyone without hesitation. If I could control myself, there were many ferocious people in the world, but I wasn't saying that they ought to die.I realized if the curse could control every portion of my body, including my brain, it might kill more than I needed, and it would not leave me anymore. ...