Lux

Why can't everyone just leave me alone?

I want to process this by myself! I don't know how I'm supposed to feel about Silas being my mate. I know he's happy about it, I know this is what he wanted, this is what we both wanted, I begged him not to leave me that night. I didn't want to meet Apollo... I felt bad that I met Apollo because I wanted to be with Silas, and I constantly felt guilt over it.

Now I'm finally getting what I want and why can't I feel happy about ...