I know my acts are unforgivable and no matter what, I can't justify myself. I have done such low-level acts. Even if our contract states I can do this still… I don’t like it anymore. I want to lacerate my skin for what I did.

It feels so disgusting now I have regained my vacuous ability to think that it made me shudder to fathom my deeds, to perceive what I have done in the fire of insecurities.

“When did I become that cold? I was never like this. What took over me? I have ...