Later that night, when Ethan and I had gone to bed, I lay there in the dark, my heart beating a little too fast and my thoughts racing. I was feeling really anxious again, like something wasn't quite right, even though I couldn't explain exactly what it was. No sound or motion outside to warn me. Nothing out of the ordinary had occurred. I could not get to sleep, though, however many times I turned over or attempted to control my breathing. My body was restless, my mind more so, and the ...