“Oh no, that’s too much. I’m not sure I’m ready for that.” Baby steps, people, baby steps. In three, two, one, I’m going to absolutely freak the fuck out. “I can’t do a live show right now, especially not an award show where everyone who’s anyone in the industry will be there.”

I felt sick panic kicking in, and had to hold my breath to keep myself from blacking out. What they were offering was both amazing and terrifying at once. To be on that stage is every ...