Ryder’s back. I shouldn’t feel this much relief that he was back safe, but there it is. I think I knew of his return even before the news broke; I felt it. I hadn’t let on to anyone, including myself, just how worried I was about his disappearance or how often I’d looked at the photo of him in the crowd amidst my fans in the last few weeks. And yes, I’ve finally admitted to myself that I wrote and released that goodbye as a way to keep in touch with him in a small way.

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