My thoughts are a relentless symphony, thrumming with indulgence and regret over my night with Pandora. Memories of it consume me, drowning out all else with their overpowering chorus. No matter how hard I’ve tried to banish it from my mind, calling it a moment of weakness, a fleeting lapse where I surrendered to my desires and claimed her as I had always dreamed, I simply cannot. 

I have wanted her since the days of our childhood. With each passing year, my feelings have only ...