I felt a little sick at what I was about to do, which in itself is saying a lot, but it had to be done. There’s no way I’ll ever fit in here, and the sooner they learn that, the better, especially Jason. I’m not one of them and never will be. There are kids here, and I’m sure if they knew half of what my life was like, they wouldn’t want me around their precious children; I know I wouldn’t.

I’ve seen and done too much ever to hope to fit into polite ...