Jace

I messed up. I knew that I did. Seeing the pain I caused Lilac generates pain in my heart. I deserved it. My infidelity did that. If I were asked why I fucked Eratu, I wouldn't have a good reason for it. She was just there when I was going through a hard time in life. I never cheat. I never did. It was out of character for me. 

I was still in Lilac's pack, staying at a hotel. I know I should get back to my pack after the murder and be there for Eratu's abortion, but I couldn't do ...